tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6282057939077269402024-03-19T05:54:33.546-07:00Just Ben & Matts momJuliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-18192576487846402542016-05-19T04:27:00.001-07:002016-05-19T04:27:56.469-07:00Blog postHow's this for a blog post:<div>I wanted to let myself fall asleep at the wheel on my way to work today.</div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-47543230217595579982015-06-26T04:06:00.001-07:002015-06-26T04:06:54.239-07:00I feel like I have failed my boys since before they were even born. They deserve so much better than this.Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-46365120416447757782015-01-29T19:00:00.001-08:002015-01-29T19:00:18.368-08:00Still feeling a lot of angerI don't know how I became this mom. <div>I'm bad about being on my cell a lot around the boys, trying to change that.</div><div>I'm not good at discipline. I yell at them like my mother yelled at me. I don't have enough patience with them. I'm lazy. Everyone else has plenty of energy after a 9hr workday & 2hr commute, right?</div><div>I search google desperately for ideas on how to discipline, pottytrain, timeouts, getting kids to listen, learning not to yell, etc etc. I don't trust my gut/instincts when it comes to raising a child. </div><div>I want to change, I want to be the mother that years from now my boys are saying what a great childhood they had.</div><div><br></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-13927984612287577622015-01-28T18:28:00.001-08:002015-01-28T18:28:45.347-08:00More guiltCurrent reason for feeling guilty regarding my boys:<div>Most nights I am the one that takes them through bedtime routine. On the occasional nights I just can't do it, S takes over. He is not as patient with them as I am. So bedtime turns into yelling & anger. This in turn makes me feel guilty for being so stressed or tired that I can't do bedtime with them. It's almost like they are being punished because I had a bad day.</div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-85666068934647765262015-01-17T09:47:00.001-08:002015-01-17T09:47:49.084-08:00Sad realizationI will always be me underneathJuliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-34294599058569023222015-01-15T16:29:00.001-08:002015-01-15T16:29:55.108-08:00Karate classI wanted to give Ben something active to do with other kids. Wish I had not chosen karate for that. <div>Ben doesn't listen, doesn't seem as coordinated or interested as the other kids. I can't wait for our 6 month contract can be up. </div><div>All this does is add one more reason to feel guilty about not having more time with them.</div><div>I wish I had just one day free of parental guilt.</div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-76423569924188456132014-03-29T06:08:00.001-07:002014-03-29T06:08:21.086-07:00Life is overwhelming<p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">This is what I posted in my Facebook group Running on Purpose</p>
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<p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">First I want to apologize for not keeping this group going. I should have asked for help when my life started getting overwhelming.</p>
<p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">When I started the group, I was eating healthy, exercising daily, and had lost close to 50lbs. </p>
<p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">In October 2013, I was offered a promotion at work that I was very excited about and would be very beneficial to my family. Since then, I have postponed my Medical Coding program I was almost done with, started working overtime in the evening and most Saturdays, and raised my stress levels to the breaking point. Bye bye healthy eating, exercise, weight loss. I have gained almost every single pound I had lost. </p>
<p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">I am in the process of taking back my life and sorting out priorities.</p><div><br></div><div>Starting weight: 297</div><div>Current weight: 284</div><div><br></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-25526297733294014522013-08-27T19:54:00.001-07:002013-08-27T19:59:37.605-07:00Emotional eatingHad a slight health freakout yesterday and I ended up getting oreos, dark chocolate bar, and my current obsession Snyders Honey Mustard & Onion pretzel pieces. I ate a bunch of pretzels and Oreo's before Shane could get home and take them away. Whenever I purchase these things, its always an impulsive purchase. I crave, I grab, I buy, I devour. Thankfully, I didn't have time to eat a ton before Shane & the boys got home. Shane promptly found them and hid them from me.<br>
I ended up looking for them and eating some more when Shane was busy with the boys. And I felt sick to my stomach from it. <br>
Health freakout over. Eating better. I'm walking everyday at work and I feel my knee regaining strength. All I can think about is, when can I start trying to jog again???<br>
For some reason, I constantly forget that I have a Wii Fit. I remembered that there is a jogging/running game. Maybe it would be safer to try jogging in place with my Wii Fit.<br>
I might give that a try soon.<br>
I ate a lot of protein today. 2 breakfast burritos: scrambled eggs, 2 small whole wheat tortillas, mild salsa, shredded cheese. Then I had some of my oatmeal patties for lunch. This definitely kept me feeling full most of the day. <br>
I'm trying to give up my bottled water in order to save money & hassle. I'm a self-proclaimed "water snob" from a family of water snobs. I am not a fan of tap water at all. I'm trying to get over it though, my husband and boys drink it, no reason I shouldn't too. I just realize when I don't have my bottles I tend to drink less. This is definitely not the time to start decreasing my water intake!<br>
I've also started adding green tea to my diet. I keep hearing how great it is for health in so many ways. I have my coffee in the morning and if I want something else to drink during the day, it is water or green tea. <br>
I only have 38days left for my coding program and I really want to get it finished. Sadly, I just don't see it happening realistically. I still have a lot more reports to code and several sections. Not only that, but I will need time to study for the test at the end. I can only do my best. If I don't finish in time, I would have to pay for an extension (which we can't afford). I'm not sure what happens if I don't purchase the extension. I obviously don't complete the program, can't take the test... don't get the certificate of completion (doesn't look good on resume).<br>
Tired, watching Little Couple, have to get up at 4:30am tomorrow and it all starts over.<br>
<br><div>Pictures from my day:</div><div><br></div><div>Silly boys on the recliner</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJ5XXSIXNWNcqDgiFwjWKHBLcv9Mlt15dB8a3M1TbCK_EWOMhLcahf2ThlvO04jo1aN-4fO3OXA6jrME6CTA7fPNS9-JgKB62Vhjpz-YHZW1SxESLR3w62odPzIvD99c0-seaNv2MzVes/s640/blogger-image--862145898.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJ5XXSIXNWNcqDgiFwjWKHBLcv9Mlt15dB8a3M1TbCK_EWOMhLcahf2ThlvO04jo1aN-4fO3OXA6jrME6CTA7fPNS9-JgKB62Vhjpz-YHZW1SxESLR3w62odPzIvD99c0-seaNv2MzVes/s640/blogger-image--862145898.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div>Shane made me an edible "rose"</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOijTA1c8-w-F0kl5-FM4575lBv3r4hFHLwLMFCKyh1kK82ies8JSlHhzrJF3GQUIHLsvdOpRtcEM-yiTDWyY0qbH-EliTr0yVIiN6J2pxqHhwsTdx40EUnlOxuGA_adprjAOnb8qhp-k/s640/blogger-image--1411137029.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOijTA1c8-w-F0kl5-FM4575lBv3r4hFHLwLMFCKyh1kK82ies8JSlHhzrJF3GQUIHLsvdOpRtcEM-yiTDWyY0qbH-EliTr0yVIiN6J2pxqHhwsTdx40EUnlOxuGA_adprjAOnb8qhp-k/s640/blogger-image--1411137029.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div>Starting weight: 297.2</div><div>Current weight: 254.4</div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-16737561171977300922013-08-25T05:21:00.001-07:002013-08-25T06:36:56.406-07:00Excuses & PreparationMy exercise clothes are in the washer. Its 6:50am and I am the only one awake in the house. If I put the clothes in the dryer, everyone will wake up. Bad preparation last night. <div>This past week, Ive realized that preparation is one of my biggest obstacles. When I dont prepare my lunches for work the night before (or on Sunday), I am scrambling in the morning trying to get a good meal together. I can usually take care of lunch. Ive been making pots of lentil or split pea soup with lots of fresh veggies & chia seeds. Easy enough to put in a container to reheat. Breakfast is a big challenge. Ive been trying to increase my calories/protein for breakfast, but it is always harder for me to quickly grab the right food. My go to's are: oatmeal w/honey & sometimes frozen blueberries on top, bread w/peanut butter & banana, grapenuts & milk. I want to incorporate more eggs, but it requires prep time that I cant do on weekday mornings. Usually, I am so focused on what I am going to eat for lunch, breakfast often gets excluded.</div><div><b><u>My goal this week is to focus on preparing breakfast primarily. </u></b></div><div>I am going to prep scrambled/boiled eggs for my breakfast this week, along with more fruit/veggies. I need to erase from my mind that fruit is a breakfast food and veggies are for lunch/dinner.</div><div>Green peppers, zucchini, spinach!! Sounds like the beginning of an awesome omelette to me!!</div><div><br></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Oatmeal cutlets I prepped for lunches</span></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgx0w_GE_9b8170O_-Dq9l88u_0JuSVUABuGIWugLb9cWLWEEMmiopdrAr8A4sgTDSNPwpRBSAf5YBkCX6Ue_BdMF0cUzIl86Wgvf8o6OSs-D1LEKsLRpbcGJ4MRL0XDsHUx9G_2IwMFts/s640/blogger-image-242019632.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgx0w_GE_9b8170O_-Dq9l88u_0JuSVUABuGIWugLb9cWLWEEMmiopdrAr8A4sgTDSNPwpRBSAf5YBkCX6Ue_BdMF0cUzIl86Wgvf8o6OSs-D1LEKsLRpbcGJ4MRL0XDsHUx9G_2IwMFts/s640/blogger-image-242019632.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div><br></div><div>Starting weight: 297.2</div><div>Current weight: 254.1</div><div><br></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-63316646138417774862013-08-24T16:56:00.001-07:002013-08-24T16:56:13.133-07:00EveningWould love to just have one day without anger and negativity surrounding me. Its hard to stay positive.<div><br></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-61705806425989322422013-06-24T20:01:00.004-07:002013-06-24T20:01:41.209-07:00Exercise Playlist<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Figured since I shared this on facebook, might as well post it here as well</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">My current playlist for walking/jogging</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br />Breathe Alexi Murdoch<br />Poker Face Lady GaGa<br />Body Movin' The Beastie Boys<br />Born Too Slow The Crystal Method<br />Remix (I Like The) New Kids On the Block<br />Imma Be Black Eyed Peas<br />Number One Chaz Jankel<br />Big Girl Now Lady GaGa [Ft. New Kids On The Block] <br />Sexy and I Know It LMFAO</span>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-13300787229844842082013-06-24T19:44:00.001-07:002013-06-24T19:44:09.944-07:00Wrong wayHaven't posted for a few days... last week was hormonal, so of course my weight jumped with the cravings, etc. At least I kept on exercising throughout. <br />
The scale is creeping up the wrong way right now, trying to get stabilized again with eating and exercise. I walked/jogged 1.5miles this evening :) Not too bad for a fat chick! :)<br />
Not giving up, just feeling a little discouraged. This week is going to be rough at work. Hopefully I will not give in to my normal stress-eating. I just need to get through the week and then I can relax a little bit. Need to schedule a few days off soon and just concentrate on getting through my coding program faster.<br />
Thats all for tonight<br />
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Starting weight: 297.2<br />
Current weight: 259.3 :-/ (thanks to El Fenix quesadillas/chips/guacamole/brownie, popcorn at movie theater)Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-49691466013135280502013-06-15T20:19:00.001-07:002013-08-27T16:12:14.908-07:00Sunflowers & Milestones<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This morning after everyone woke up and got dressed & ready, we got in the car and headed toward Waxahachie. Shanes mom mentioned she had seen a field of real sunflowers in the area. We were taking a road that went from hwy 45 to hwy 35 when we started driving closer and closer to THIS!!!!</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So, of course I needed lots of pictures for documentation purposes.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Went home, all the boys took a nap. I was trying to take a nap, but just couldn't :-/</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">One more thing before bed...This morning, the day after my 40lb weight loss, I lost another 2lbs!!! Crazy! :) </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Didn't get much exercise in today, so I went for a walk after the boys went to bed and after a little bit of studying. I wanted to at least make an attempt to jog, but without people seeing me. I took the path behind our cul-de-sac and I jogged for maybe 5minutes out of the 21 minutes I walked! I just kept trying to jog a little/walk a little/jog a little/walk a little.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I was amazed I could actually do it! Really feeling proud at how far I've come :) </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Current weight: 254.8!! (Almost to my short goal of 250!) </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Today was slow and uneventful at work.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I keep reading and hearing about how getting healthy (body & mind) causes some big changes in your life and the people you surround yourself with. I would like to surround myself with people who love and support me and are not constantly negative. </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What if there is no option to get away from the negativity? </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am hoping my therapist will be able to give me tips on dealing with negativity. </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Speaking of therapist, I finally got an email from her this afternoon. She was actually at the office, wasn't aware that someone had locked the door of the office, and her cell phone was dead. It sounds plausible and I really don't want to go searching for another therapist with the right hours for me. We rescheduled for tomorrow.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I wish so much I could be a better role model, a better influence on those around me. All I can do is keep doing what I'm doing and keep my head up!</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I walked over a mile at lunch today and I attempted Jillian Michael's video again this evening... still pretty tough, I will work my way into more, slowly. My eating was a little off, but I think I did ok. </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wednesday confession: so, those smudgies that were kind of healthy? I ate about 4 of those today :-/ and I had a grande vanilla latte from starbucks.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">38lbs lost! </span>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-90099558438066015572013-06-12T03:42:00.001-07:002013-08-26T03:42:30.047-07:00Abandonment issuesMonday at work was super slow, but we had a little family emergency in the evening (everything is fine now). So the added stress & worry brought on the emotional eating :( <div>Monday confession: 4 morninstar farm vegetarian bacon strips with muenster & colby jack cheese melted on top, plus a sandwich bag 3/4 filled with french fried onions (the kind they top green bean casserole with).</div><div>Tuesday work was slow again and I didnt go walking at lunch. </div><div>I was anticipating my 2nd therapy appt that evening. I got to the appt 15min early and played games on my phone until appt time. I walk up 5min before appt starts...the door is locked. I called and left a msg for the therapist, I called the office number which said they were closed, I emailed her. Nothing. *sigh*</div><div>Tuesday confession: I ate 3 of my oatmeal cookies at work thinking I would workout later to burn them off, but no workout.</div><div><br></div><div>Pictures of my Monday & Tuesday</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div></div><div>A much better version of toast w/peanut butter & applesauce (morning snack at work)</div><div><br></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDafTL-Wui2aBZTEcpHpGWe0E2fP3mjB2sQ_AiITNMe9NqiasmkJ6X7-hbeAcP7OFQ_v8lq0S4ZOMvJgIga1_-b14biTsCb8OOOe1Fqf_C-MAypdX2GfeluTfVpIJy85OrWnSvC5dDo6M/s640/blogger-image-690156077.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDafTL-Wui2aBZTEcpHpGWe0E2fP3mjB2sQ_AiITNMe9NqiasmkJ6X7-hbeAcP7OFQ_v8lq0S4ZOMvJgIga1_-b14biTsCb8OOOe1Fqf_C-MAypdX2GfeluTfVpIJy85OrWnSvC5dDo6M/s640/blogger-image-690156077.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div><span style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Someone shared this on Facebook, so instead of eating a pint of ice cream & a can of Pringles after being abandoned by my therapist, I ate one of these.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">http://www.fitsugar.com/Healthy-Snack-Smudgies-1731994</span></div><div><span style="font-family: '.Helvetica NeueUI'; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhacC4tkUugWRG-G3hAe2CwMlaTiK35HUq1JfZPhoh9RRNU_iU417Y9MPjPrO6MWXqNZvF-ki-lBICuIMXrfLViD0Uf5WzyGwmOdIx0_tmHZERRe4hTMjaI2meBqc2eGHRihgpMfoyO10c/s640/blogger-image-487100774.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhacC4tkUugWRG-G3hAe2CwMlaTiK35HUq1JfZPhoh9RRNU_iU417Y9MPjPrO6MWXqNZvF-ki-lBICuIMXrfLViD0Uf5WzyGwmOdIx0_tmHZERRe4hTMjaI2meBqc2eGHRihgpMfoyO10c/s640/blogger-image-487100774.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div>Starting weight: 297.2</div><div>Current weight: 258.6</div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-50382245243894428812013-06-09T19:04:00.000-07:002013-08-26T03:40:15.790-07:00Weekend<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">It was a rough weekend for me. I volunteered to work Saturday morning. Thankfully what made it worth it to me was being able to see one of my best friends Valerie for our monthly "GBO" (Girls breakfast out). She always gives me hope in so many ways. She is my mentor in a way. I miss working with her so much, but I'm so happy she is able to do what she loves and has worked so hard for.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I did ok eating for most of the weekend (until tonight). I avoided the donuts they brought in to work on Saturday. But today, I got some kind of urge to bake something. So I went searching for oatmeal cookies which I know Shane loves. I found <a href="http://www.marthastewart.com/333970/classic-oatmeal-cookies" target="_blank">Martha Stuart's Classic Oatmeal Cookies </a>and I made a batch. So many oatmeal cookies...*sigh* I ate 3 1/2.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Then Shane went on a Pinterest kick and decided to make Garlic Bread pizza tonight.</span> <span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">It was so yummy, but I really wasn't planning to eat a heavy dinner since I tried to get most of my calories for breakfast & lunch. I ended up eating 3 garlic bread pizza "slices"</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I went way over my calories for the day, even though I walked 1.30miles while the boys were napping. I also tried to do the <a href="http://www.jillianmichaels.com/" target="_blank">Jillian Michael's 30 day shred </a>after the boys went to bed. I got through the stretching and then, yikes... jumping jacks? push ups? I did a few, but I was really not ready for all of that. I will have to work into it slowly.</span><br><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Not ending the weekend well making oatmeal cookies. They will be dispursed at work tomorrow. They are really yummy though!</span></div>
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Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-54629276567513758362013-06-09T07:47:00.001-07:002013-06-09T07:47:35.893-07:00SupportFeeling a lack of support on all sides this weekend. I can't get away from the negativity and anger constantly surrounding my life. Feeling a bit hopeless today. Woe is me.Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-90254904849415395882013-06-06T19:49:00.003-07:002013-08-25T07:01:43.558-07:00Busy work day<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Very busy at work today, but at least not as stressful. </span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I've eaten</span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; "> pretty well yesterday and today, didn't over-snack. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">I walked at lunch, but didn't do a full mile because there were lots of people there for a convention and just in my way. </span><div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I did get on the recumbent bike at home tonight, but I only spent 20min on it, because I pushed too hard too fast. So I stopped. At least I did a little bit.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Starting weight 297.2</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Current weight 259.3</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I definitely told her I held alot inside and I "ate" my feelings.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yesterday, I was sad to see the scale went up again to 261.0.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Its the late night snack "cravings" I have... they all tend to be sugary or high carb :(</span> <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Thats what ruins my number on the scale. I know this is about learning to be healthy, not just working on the number on the scale, but that number, when it drops, it gives me more motivation and inspiration to keep going.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">At work I walked at lunch Monday, skipped Tuesday, and I walked again today. I hate sweating so profusely in front of strangers (and while in uncomfortable business casual clothing). I'm just trying to keep my head up and not care what other people might see, this is about me and my health and how healthy I will be after walking.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My 3yo seems like he's getting worse with tantrums, defiance, not wanting to do what we ask him. We all went for a walk this afternoon and he threw a tantrum on the walking path behind our neighborhood, I'm sure the whole neighborhood could hear him. We were heading home and he wanted to go the opposite direction. Its so hard to go for a decent walk with the boys. At least I got an extra walk in today along with the mile at lunchtime.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I ate pretty decently today, didn't really eat anything "bad" for me, no real treats or anything.</span> <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hopefully that will give the scale a little nudge downward.</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br></span><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This weekend, I am hoping I can buy Jillian Michael's 30day Shred. I keep hearing how great it is, I see really good reviews for it also. I just need something different and inside while its getting too hot outside. I really would like to incorporate weights into my exercise also.</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Have I mentioned how much I'm crushing on Benedict Cumberbatch right now?!</span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The ice cream is still in the freezer :( I hate that I am constantly aware of this. </span><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Starting weight: 297.2</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Current weight: 259.9</span></div></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-59260648813840786382013-06-03T19:51:00.003-07:002013-08-25T06:53:50.355-07:00Pizza on the scale<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So, my pizza showed up on the scale at this mornings weigh-in.</span> <span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I went back up 1.5lbs. Thats ok, after all, I did eat cake, ice cream and way too much pizza yesterday. I thought maybe the walk afterword would counteract, I'm sure I would have gained even more if I hadn't done the walk!</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br></span><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Back to work this morning. We didn't make our "goal" for the month which means we have to dress business casual again.</span> <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Normally, I would take that as an excuse to stop walking because its too uncomfortable to walk in dress clothes. But I'm not about making excuses anymore. I've made excuses for 36 years (although I doubt I was a 4yr old making excuses for not exercising!). </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">Even though I was in yucky slacks, I did my mile walk today at lunch. I wish I didn't sweat so much, it makes me feel icky. </span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; "><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">I ate really well today for my breakfast/lunch & snacks. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">I started getting a headache in the afternoon, was trying to figure out why and I just didn't know. I don't usually have coffee in the afternoon, just the morning, so didn't think it was a caffeine headache. I drank 3 bottles of water while at work, so I wasn't dehydrated. </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; ">Probably a stress headache, seems to be common lately in relation to work.</span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I was doing ok with dinner this evening... but then hubby decided to have leftover cake & ice cream to share with the boys. Ice cream is my trigger and its really hard having it in the house :( I ended up having some of that and I just went downhill from there.</span> <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I had eaten a small bowl of cereal, a small apple, and a piece of whole grain bread w/natural peanut butter for dinner. But after the boys went to bed, I ended up eating some of the macaroni & cheese that was leftover from their dinner, but no that wasn't enough. I guess I was craving salt, so I got out the tortilla chips (that I didn't know we bought) and sprinkled cheese over it for nachos w/salsa. Turned out to be very unsatisfying. It was a brand new bag, I opened it myself, but the chips ended up being stale. Sadly, I ate it anyway. *shame*</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br></span></div><div><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I did have a thought about getting on the recumbant bike this evening, but being very tired, all I wanted to do was get some studying done and go to bed.</span><div><font face="Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif"><br></font>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am going to my first appointment with a new licensed therapist. Its been many years since I've been to one, and boy have my problems changed since then! I am looking forward to it, but I still feel weird about it too. I know my problems are nothing compared to some peoples problems, but to me they are still problems and issues I haven't dealt with properly.</span> <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think this will be one of the stepping stones I need to create a better healthy lifestyle for myself and my family. </span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I have no real pictures of my day, but since today is Benjamin's <b><i>true</i></b> birthday, I am posting some of my favorite baby pictures of him. </span><br>
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Starting Weight: 297.2<br>
Current Weight: 259.3</div></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-66766875711337174842013-06-02T19:52:00.000-07:002013-06-02T19:52:47.960-07:00A 3 year old & a birthday party<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Woke up today the same way I did yesterday. Heard something outside the room, looked up and Ben was standing at the doorway saying "Hi"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I did my usual first-thing-in-the-morning weigh in...was surprised to see another 1.5lb drop!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I didn't eat enough calories yesterday, I wasn't doing it on purpose, but I well made up for it today and then some :( But I also did alot of exercising & sweating today too. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Today, we prepared the house for Benjamin's 3rd birthday party.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ben of course was not especially cooperative today, maybe we shouldn't have told him over and over we were having a party for him. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I was able to mow the front lawn in order to burn some calories</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sadly, we had pizza/cake/ice cream for birthday lunch. I told myself I was only going to eat 2 slices of pizza. And I did at lunch. But after everyone left and the boys went down for a nap, and theres still slices of pizza sitting on the counter... :( I ended up eating 6slices all together. Thankfully it was thin crust, but still. Bad bad bad. So hard to break bad habits.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Maybe if I can incorporate enough good habits, the bad ones will eventually drop off.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">After I ate the 4 extra slices in shame, I got inspiration since the boys were still taking a nap.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I told Shane I was going for a walk. I recently downloaded the app Nike +, its basically a running app (I of course do not run). I've been using it when I walk during lunch at work to try to make it to one mile. So I turned up my headphones with my exercise playlist and went off for a walk through the neighborhood. I walked for almost 30min and almost 1 1/2 miles.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">When I got home, poor Shane was cleaning up a "dirty" mess in the boys room. At least it wasn't on the walls this time!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I hope the lawnmowing & walk will keep me from gaining from my bad eating today. If it doesn't, I have my healthy lunch & breakfasts prepared for tomorrow and I plan to do my mile at lunchtime. I will keep going! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Pictures from my day: </span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">3 years ago tomorrow...my sweet Benjamin Lee was born!</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Ben loved his Thomas the Tank Engine cake!</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">We discovered this little guy LOVES bbq ribs. </td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Starting weight: 297.2</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Current weight: 257.8 :)</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> </span>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0Little Elm, TX, USA33.1626193 -96.9375051000000133.056314300000004 -97.098866600000008 33.2689243 -96.776143600000012tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-69492888060782374712013-06-01T11:47:00.000-07:002013-06-01T15:42:34.321-07:00Finally!My body really didn't want to drop below 260. Ive been up & down in the 260's since March. Last week, I walked everyday during lunch at work. The extra effort paid off. I weighed in this morning at 259.3!<div>Went grocery shopping and some studying so far. Working on laundry and getting ready for Benjamin's 3rd birthday party tomorrow. Ive eaten pretty healthy today. There is ice cream in the freezer for tomorrow. I wish I was not so aware of that fact.</div><div>Some pictures from my day...</div><div>Ben has a bug bite beside his eye and its swollen & looks bad. So of course he decided to get extra attention at the store by telling everyone he saw "Hi"</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgF3yfvtKNukN5q_OGUh9bBqB-3LwQThmQSd1nwd5DGyao46ztXxAuhniClO1sRyX1IXuG3W68JCR5FzVU37tryScQUD9-u3GkjW-LU0vWGVoUzxh37-ccHcpekxIt6SLvJ2a82BXfNAAk/s640/blogger-image--1331690047.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgF3yfvtKNukN5q_OGUh9bBqB-3LwQThmQSd1nwd5DGyao46ztXxAuhniClO1sRyX1IXuG3W68JCR5FzVU37tryScQUD9-u3GkjW-LU0vWGVoUzxh37-ccHcpekxIt6SLvJ2a82BXfNAAk/s640/blogger-image--1331690047.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">My healthy salad for lunch: Spinach, Kale, shredded cheese, 1 boca burger crumbled, balsamic vinaigrette </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsRrrmo1-cDZums-fL3hx1dT6DExaw7yVMv-KH-20fjp5T54_c2iIm-YMW-bjbzBTsw5TWcVQgAhRb2NkwdhUHR_Gtd-eFITYY_ud3PbrAjfnLujWNCZNwXETgPIbVGAu9-43SzxIgaeU/s640/blogger-image--180271606.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsRrrmo1-cDZums-fL3hx1dT6DExaw7yVMv-KH-20fjp5T54_c2iIm-YMW-bjbzBTsw5TWcVQgAhRb2NkwdhUHR_Gtd-eFITYY_ud3PbrAjfnLujWNCZNwXETgPIbVGAu9-43SzxIgaeU/s640/blogger-image--180271606.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Starting weight: 297.2</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Current weight: 259.3</div><br></div>Juliethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14081156413157497672noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628205793907726940.post-54572476387266464102013-05-31T21:13:00.000-07:002013-08-25T06:38:54.753-07:00InspiredI'm feeling more inspired today. Started listening to a podcast called <a href="http://www.halfsizeme.com/">Half Size Me</a> (thank you Kristine for recommending!) <br>
It is so inspirational to hear from other women like me needing to lose as much as I need to lose. <br>
I'm thinking I might finally have a better loss tomorrow morning, but I won't get discouraged if I don't.<br>
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Starting weight: 297.2<br>
Current weight 260.8 <br>
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Short Term Goal: 250.0<br>
Long Term Goal: 140-150<br>
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