Pizza on the scale

So, my pizza showed up on the scale at this mornings weigh-in.  I went back up 1.5lbs.  Thats ok, after all, I did eat cake, ice cream and way too much pizza yesterday.  I thought maybe the walk afterword would counteract, I'm sure I would have gained even more if I hadn't done the walk!

Back to work this morning.  We didn't make our "goal" for the month which means we have to dress business casual again.  Normally, I would take that as an excuse to stop walking because its too uncomfortable to walk in dress clothes.  But I'm not about making excuses anymore.  I've made excuses for 36 years (although I doubt I was a 4yr old making excuses for not exercising!).  Even though I was in yucky slacks, I did my mile walk today at lunch.  I wish I didn't sweat so much, it makes me feel icky.  

I ate really well today for my breakfast/lunch & snacks.  I started getting a headache in the afternoon, was trying to figure out why and I just didn't know.  I don't usually have coffee in the afternoon, just the morning, so didn't think it was a caffeine headache.  I drank 3 bottles of water while at work, so I wasn't dehydrated.  Probably a stress headache, seems to be common lately in relation to work.

I was doing ok with dinner this evening... but then hubby decided to have leftover cake & ice cream to share with the boys.  Ice cream is my trigger and its really hard having it in the house :( I ended up having some of that and I just went downhill from there.  I had eaten a small bowl of cereal, a small apple, and a piece of whole grain bread w/natural peanut butter for dinner.  But after the boys went to bed, I ended up eating some of the macaroni & cheese that was leftover from their dinner, but no that wasn't enough.  I guess I was craving salt, so I got out the tortilla chips (that I didn't know we bought) and sprinkled cheese over it for nachos w/salsa.  Turned out to be very unsatisfying.  It was a brand new bag, I opened it myself, but the chips ended up being stale.  Sadly, I ate it anyway. *shame*

I did have a thought about getting on the recumbant bike this evening, but being very tired, all I wanted to do was get some studying done and go to bed.

I am going to my first appointment with a new licensed therapist.  Its been many years since I've been to one, and boy have my problems changed since then! I am looking forward to it, but I still feel weird about it too.  I know my problems are nothing compared to some peoples problems, but to me they are still problems and issues I haven't dealt with properly.  I think this will be one of the stepping stones I need to create a better healthy lifestyle for myself and my family.

I have no real pictures of my day, but since today is Benjamin's true birthday, I am posting some of my favorite baby pictures of him.  

Starting Weight: 297.2
Current Weight: 259.3

A 3 year old & a birthday party

Woke up today the same way I did yesterday.  Heard something outside the room, looked up and Ben was standing at the doorway saying "Hi"
I did my usual first-thing-in-the-morning weigh in...was surprised to see another 1.5lb drop!
I didn't eat enough calories yesterday, I wasn't doing it on purpose, but I well made up for it today and then some :(  But I also did alot of exercising & sweating today too.
Today, we prepared the house for Benjamin's 3rd birthday party.
Ben of course was not especially cooperative today, maybe we shouldn't have told him over and over we were having a party for him.  
I was able to mow the front lawn in order to burn some calories
Sadly, we had pizza/cake/ice cream for birthday lunch.  I told myself I was only going to eat 2 slices of pizza.  And I did at lunch.  But after everyone left and the boys went down for a nap, and theres still slices of pizza sitting on the counter... :(  I ended up eating 6slices all together.  Thankfully it was thin crust, but still.  Bad bad bad. So hard to break bad habits.
Maybe if I can incorporate enough good habits, the bad ones will eventually drop off.
After I ate the 4 extra slices in shame, I got inspiration since the boys were still taking a nap.
I told Shane I was going for a walk.  I recently downloaded the app Nike +, its basically a running app (I of course do not run).  I've been using it when I walk during lunch at work to try to make it to one mile.  So I turned up my headphones with my exercise playlist and went off for a walk through the neighborhood.  I walked for almost 30min and almost 1 1/2 miles.
When I got home, poor Shane was cleaning up a "dirty" mess in the boys room.  At least it wasn't on the walls this time!
I hope the lawnmowing & walk will keep me from gaining from my bad eating today.  If it doesn't, I have my healthy lunch & breakfasts prepared for tomorrow and I plan to do my mile at lunchtime.  I will keep going! 

Pictures from my day: 

3 years ago tomorrow...my sweet Benjamin Lee was born!

 

Ben loved his Thomas the Tank Engine cake!

We discovered this little guy LOVES bbq ribs.

 


Starting weight: 297.2
Current weight:  257.8 :)