Sunflowers & Milestones

This morning after everyone woke up and got dressed & ready, we got in the car and headed toward Waxahachie.  Shanes mom mentioned she had seen a field of real sunflowers in the area.  We were taking a road that went from hwy 45 to hwy 35 when we started driving closer and closer to THIS!!!!

So, of course I needed lots of pictures for documentation purposes.

We headed home and stopped at Cracker Barrel on the way to get lunch.  I was trying to choose a healthy option, I found a tossed salad, but I was too hungry to eat just a salad.  So I got the Southwestern Scrambler (scrambled eggs, w/salsa, tomatoes, potatoes).  Probably not the best option, but I got my protein?
Went home, all the boys took a nap.  I was trying to take a nap, but just couldn't :-/
After naps, we went back out for groceries and haircuts for the boys.
Pre & post haircut pictures.... I love their hair buzzed :) Makes momma happy!

Before

 

After:

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One more thing before bed...This morning, the day after my 40lb weight loss, I lost another 2lbs!!! Crazy! :) 

Didn't get much exercise in today, so I went for a walk after the boys went to bed and after a little bit of studying.  I wanted to at least make an attempt to jog, but without people seeing me.  I took the path behind our cul-de-sac and I jogged for maybe 5minutes out of the 21 minutes I walked!  I just kept trying to jog a little/walk a little/jog a little/walk a little.

I was amazed I could actually do it! Really feeling proud at how far I've come :) 

Starting weight: 297.2

Current weight: 254.8!! (Almost to my short goal of 250!)

Exhausted

Yesterday evening, I had my first appointment with my new therapist.  I really liked her.  Within the first session she brought out of me that one of my main problems is being able to express my feelings (anger for the most part). 
I definitely told her I held alot inside and I "ate" my feelings.

Yesterday, I was sad to see the scale went up again to 261.0.
Its the late night snack "cravings" I have... they all tend to be sugary or high carb :(  Thats what ruins my number on the scale.  I know this is about learning to be healthy, not just working on the number on the scale, but that number, when it drops, it gives me more motivation and inspiration to keep going.

At work I walked at lunch Monday, skipped Tuesday, and I walked again today.  I hate sweating so profusely in front of strangers (and while in uncomfortable business casual clothing).  I'm just trying to keep my head up and not care what other people might see, this is about me and my health and how healthy I will be after walking.

My 3yo seems like he's getting worse with tantrums, defiance, not wanting to do what we ask him.  We all went for a walk this afternoon and he threw a tantrum on the walking path behind our neighborhood, I'm sure the whole neighborhood could hear him.  We were heading home and he wanted to go the opposite direction.  Its so hard to go for a decent walk with the boys.  At least I got an extra walk in today along with the mile at lunchtime.

I ate pretty decently today, didn't really eat anything "bad" for me, no real treats or anything.  Hopefully that will give the scale a little nudge downward.

This weekend, I am hoping I can buy Jillian Michael's 30day Shred.  I keep hearing how great it is, I see really good reviews for it also.  I just need something different and inside while its getting too hot outside.  I really would like to incorporate weights into my exercise also.

 Jillian Michaels

Have I mentioned how much I'm crushing on Benedict Cumberbatch right now?!

The ice cream is still in the freezer :(  I hate that I am constantly aware of this.

Starting weight: 297.2

Current weight: 259.9