Emotional eating

Had a slight health freakout yesterday and I ended up getting oreos, dark chocolate bar, and my current obsession Snyders Honey Mustard & Onion pretzel pieces.  I ate a bunch of pretzels and Oreo's before Shane could get home and take them away.  Whenever I purchase these things, its always an impulsive purchase.  I crave, I grab, I buy, I devour. Thankfully, I didn't have time to eat a ton before Shane & the boys got home.  Shane promptly found them and hid them from me.
I ended up looking for them and eating some more when Shane was busy with the boys.  And I felt sick to my stomach from it. 
Health freakout over.  Eating better.  I'm walking everyday at work and I feel my knee regaining strength.  All I can think about is, when can I start trying to jog again???
For some reason, I constantly forget that I have a Wii Fit. I remembered that there is a jogging/running game.  Maybe it would be safer to try jogging in place with my Wii Fit.
I might give that a try soon.
I ate a lot of protein today. 2 breakfast burritos: scrambled eggs, 2 small whole wheat tortillas, mild salsa, shredded cheese.  Then I had some of my oatmeal patties for lunch.  This definitely kept me feeling full most of the day. 
I'm trying to give up my bottled water in order to save money & hassle.  I'm a self-proclaimed "water snob" from a family of water snobs.  I am not a fan of tap water at all.  I'm trying to get over it though, my husband and boys drink it, no reason I shouldn't too.  I just realize when I don't have my bottles I tend to drink less.  This is definitely not the time to start decreasing my water intake!
I've also started adding green tea to my diet.  I keep hearing how great it is for health in so many ways.  I have my coffee in the morning and if I want something else to drink during the day, it is water or green tea. 
I only have 38days left for my coding program and I really want to get it finished.  Sadly, I just don't see it happening realistically.  I still have a lot more reports to code and several sections.  Not only that, but I will need time to study for the test at the end.  I can only do my best.  If I don't finish in time, I would have to pay for an extension (which we can't afford).  I'm not sure what happens if I don't purchase the extension.  I obviously don't complete the program, can't take the test... don't get the certificate of completion (doesn't look good on resume).
Tired, watching Little Couple, have to get up at 4:30am tomorrow and it all starts over.

Pictures from my day:

Silly boys on the recliner

Shane made me an edible "rose"

Starting weight: 297.2

Current weight: 254.4

Excuses & Preparation

My exercise clothes are in the washer.  Its 6:50am and I am the only one awake in the house. If I put the clothes in the dryer, everyone will wake up.  Bad preparation last night. 

This past week, Ive realized that preparation is one of my biggest obstacles. When I dont prepare my lunches for work the night before (or on Sunday), I am scrambling in the morning trying to get a good meal together.  I can usually take care of lunch. Ive been making pots of lentil or split pea soup with lots of fresh veggies & chia seeds. Easy enough to put in a container to reheat.  Breakfast is a big challenge. Ive been trying to increase my calories/protein for breakfast, but it is always harder for me to quickly grab the right food.  My go to's are: oatmeal w/honey & sometimes frozen blueberries on top, bread w/peanut butter & banana, grapenuts & milk.  I want to incorporate more eggs, but it requires prep time that I cant do on weekday mornings.  Usually, I am so focused on what I am going to eat for lunch, breakfast often gets excluded.

My goal this week is to focus on preparing breakfast primarily. 

I am going to prep scrambled/boiled eggs for my breakfast this week, along with more fruit/veggies.  I need to erase from my mind that fruit is a breakfast food and veggies are for lunch/dinner.

Green peppers, zucchini, spinach!! Sounds like the beginning of an awesome omelette to me!!

Oatmeal cutlets I prepped for lunches

Starting weight: 297.2

Current weight: 254.1

Evening

Would love to just have one day without anger and negativity surrounding me. Its hard to stay positive.

Exercise Playlist

Figured since I shared this on facebook, might as well post it here as well

My current playlist for walking/jogging

Breathe            Alexi Murdoch
Poker Face        Lady GaGa
Body Movin'        The Beastie Boys
Born Too Slow        The Crystal Method
Remix (I Like The)    New Kids On the Block
Imma Be            Black Eyed Peas
Number One        Chaz Jankel
Big Girl Now         Lady GaGa [Ft. New Kids On The Block]   
Sexy and I Know It    LMFAO

Wrong way

Haven't posted for a few days... last week was hormonal, so of course my weight jumped with the cravings, etc.  At least I kept on exercising throughout. 
The scale is creeping up the wrong way right now, trying to get stabilized again with eating and exercise.  I walked/jogged 1.5miles this evening :)  Not too bad for a fat chick! :)
Not giving up, just feeling a little discouraged.  This week is going to be rough at work.  Hopefully I will not give in to my normal stress-eating.  I just need to get through the week and then I can relax a little bit.  Need to schedule a few days off soon and just concentrate on getting through my coding program faster.
Thats all for tonight

Starting weight: 297.2
Current weight: 259.3 :-/ (thanks to El Fenix quesadillas/chips/guacamole/brownie, popcorn at movie theater)

Sunflowers & Milestones

This morning after everyone woke up and got dressed & ready, we got in the car and headed toward Waxahachie.  Shanes mom mentioned she had seen a field of real sunflowers in the area.  We were taking a road that went from hwy 45 to hwy 35 when we started driving closer and closer to THIS!!!!

So, of course I needed lots of pictures for documentation purposes.

We headed home and stopped at Cracker Barrel on the way to get lunch.  I was trying to choose a healthy option, I found a tossed salad, but I was too hungry to eat just a salad.  So I got the Southwestern Scrambler (scrambled eggs, w/salsa, tomatoes, potatoes).  Probably not the best option, but I got my protein?
Went home, all the boys took a nap.  I was trying to take a nap, but just couldn't :-/
After naps, we went back out for groceries and haircuts for the boys.
Pre & post haircut pictures.... I love their hair buzzed :) Makes momma happy!

Before

 

After:

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After:

One more thing before bed...This morning, the day after my 40lb weight loss, I lost another 2lbs!!! Crazy! :) 

Didn't get much exercise in today, so I went for a walk after the boys went to bed and after a little bit of studying.  I wanted to at least make an attempt to jog, but without people seeing me.  I took the path behind our cul-de-sac and I jogged for maybe 5minutes out of the 21 minutes I walked!  I just kept trying to jog a little/walk a little/jog a little/walk a little.

I was amazed I could actually do it! Really feeling proud at how far I've come :) 

Starting weight: 297.2

Current weight: 254.8!! (Almost to my short goal of 250!)

Yay!

As of this morning, I have lost 40lbs!!!

Starting weight: 297.2

Current weight: 256.8